*GASP*

he is so.............. 😭

um, i think i fixed felix so hes not an asshole anymore. huzzah? i didnt screenshot all his love events/character development, but you could consider that a good thing. now if you ever play the game yourself it'll be a surprise!

i remembered i dont have to win the exam to "win," i can always just get his ending and- wtf im winning? im in the lead rn. energy drinks in this game MAY be overpowered

noa wants me bad, but besides looking 15 at best, his hobby is... cleaning. boooooriiiiing. clavis' hobbies were way cooler. i miss my witch boyfriend.

i really like his smiling sprite tho (old pic attached)

this game has one week to explain to me why noa slaps my hand, tells me to back up, and then tells me to just leave when i touch him without asking (to fix his sleeve) before i assume the worst. especially when right before he was saying that although now he likes to be lazy to chill, before he was a guardian he didnt really have the choice to exercise or be active or anything... apparently one of the guardians blew himself up in a war, so anything is possible at this point

from looking at my Strategy Memo im finally realizing that reina has no events. so fuck yuri? you can take her down to earth and to your continent and stuff, but thats not enough for me... i wish i could see how that girl in kin'iro no corda star orchestra is treated

after a very awesome date with him, i got a necklace from felix 👍🏾 (it'd be cool if getting close enough to reina earned you a friendship bracelet)

i said it when i played retour and ill say it again. the guardians gifting you a necklace with a gemstone of their color is, to me, just a more fancy form of offering you a collar. so wearing it daily like its nothing is crazy. i do not mean this in a negative way (if you think im insane for this, youre of the same opinion of the friend i told when i was playing retour 😭)

since hes become nice to me i feel like i have no grasp on his personality anymore. who are you. and what about you is even guardian of dreams-like

i suppose that instead of going the olivie route (incredibly free-spirited) they made him a perfectionist and hard-worker because ambition and perserverance is how you reach your dreams in real life. that makes sense. ... not that olivie WASN'T a hard worker and ambitious? he admired those traits too, but like... he pretty obviously didnt like his job and liked to have fun with it when he could. but yea

cyrus is from the sacred bird universe

*fucking grabs him* Who are the current guardians of that universe. tell me now

they acknowledge being invited to your room, just the two of you, is a little bold. in every other game they just come in like its nothing... well, in etoile they would at least say stuff like "wow ive never been in a girl's room before" but nothing that implied me inviting them is. like. woah. you know? you know.

it's been a running joke this entire game that bird noises ange hears are actually cyrus

virgil, whom ive never brought up cuz idgaf about him, was like o_O because i wanted to interrupt a couple's argument at the park. as soon i walked over there to end it, however, the couple had already made up.

when he asked me why i'd even try in the first place, my options were like "just wanted to give me two cents" "it makes me feel bad," and "honestly? i should've just left it alone." the middle option was closest to what i wanted, i guess, but what i was really thinking wasn't there. there was no "well what if it lead to domestic violence?" option. i may be crazy

(I wish I could think of better way to put that "awareness" thing Japanese loves better in English... I'm too tired right now. tbh this whole translation sucks cuz im exhausted. forgive me)

and then he said he was just kidding

woah... cg

now why is there death talk 😭

Bro.

... and i did not use My Console, in case you thought otherwise! it sucks. bad. do not ask me how i know

*pulls out chair and sits* now let me tell you about this fucking exam.

first of all, let me tell you that after being in the lead for like 2 days, i fell behind again. i thought it was over again.

but this time, the exam was guardians' choice instead of whoever has the better-developed continent. what this means gameplay-wise is whoever has more guardians who like them wins that month. and i won (with felix as one of the people who voted for me, of course)!!!! i was stoked!!!!!!!! i was making a comeback!!

and after it was announced that i won and would be getting an extra heart (stamina, can do more stuff in a day), FELIX(!?!?!?) said "wait, this isn't fair. reina has worked hard and deserves to have her efforts recognized" and i, not ange but me chris, said "HUH??????" and then the guy who announced the results said "does anyone else feel this way? two people? then... i suppose reina will get a heart too" and then she DID and then she had SEVEN HEARTS compared to my five. i do not think i can come back from this.

then came the stupid monthly potluck, which i screwed up yet again. but wait, it gets worse: after the potluck, FELIX came up to me and said "you know ange, i liked the food you brought. it was funny." CAN YOU DIE?? of course the game wasnt programmed for ange to notice felix's potluck "support" happening right after him voting for and then against me during the exam, so ange had nothing special to say, but i, chris, definitely would have started insulting him in front of everyone. what is his problem

when i told a friend about this, she said "he voted for you because he likes you, but then realized that if you become queen he'll never be able to be with you and so had to ruin it" which is 😭😭😭😭😭

game systems-wise, i think the event happened because reina's continent is doing better than mine. but in that case, i think the person to bring up how reina worked hard too absolutely should not be the person you have the highest intimacy with sdfjslgjfsl

they definitely considered that though, and decided keeping it would be funny. it's funny to me now, but at the moment i genuinely wanted him to step on a long rusty nail

theres no point in doing the "taking care of my people" part of the game anymore since im never coming back from yesterday's half-loss, so im just gonna chat and chill and see if i can end this asap

i know its kind of anticlimatic, but listen. i want to start harutoki so bad. i want to start it more than i really want to win this queen exam. so there. and i'll most likely replay this sometime anyway. ive been chipping away at an Angelique Special no-requesting-power run, so when im done with that i'll probably replay luminarise. may or may not liveblog that, who knows

who does this [fellow] think he is... he makes me sick